CRAZY WEEK @ WORK

It has been a couple of days since my last visit to my blog but it seems forever. Work is really hectic, we are in the middle of an acquisition, in fact it is us who are being bought. Never did I think that I would go through such periods not so much of uncertainty but more of indecisions and politics. Personally, I do not feel that my job is at risk or that I am at risk, maybe because I do not care so much about what happens. This is not true. I care. But I know that I am valued in my company and I know that the "way" that I was hired, as a talent, is a shield that even now in this turbulent times and after almost 10 years since my beginning still shields me from uncertainties such as the ones that most other colleagues face at this moment.

So ... back to my reality. These past few days have not been great for my diet effort. I have been careless and not so much followed every single Weight Watchers point that I ate. The problem is that although I cherish Weight Watchers and I think is it s diet style that suits me, the fact that I enrolled on line but then had to dis-enroll because the online version is onle available for certain countries. So, I am trying to find someone with a credit card in the UK, and that someone up to now was my younger sister who is studying in the UK but after almost a fortnight she called me to tell me that the credit card is in fact a debit card and that our mum has to transfer money into it. And after all these phone calls, is your card her yet, I have to wait my mum to come back from the Emirates, where my other sis is. Grrrrrrrr..... The problem is the Weight Watchers meetings are unavailable in Greece as they left completely..Went bust in Greece or something. So on line is truly my only option!

At the same time, Christmas is round the corner and I must lose at least 3 kilos, 3 solid fat kilos, by then. I will do it. I will be very disciplined. I will try really hard. I also have a wedding to go to, in December and I so want to look nice!

Anyway, from tomorrow I will be really carreful with everything that I eat. Talk to you soon!

Countdown

So... 33 years old, two adorable children, a great supportive husband... and greatly lost as well. I love my life, full of challenges true, yet also rewarding and fulfilling. And yes still my life is dominated by a large extent to how much food I have had and how full I am . I connect every aspect of my life to food. Love, hate, sadness, boredom, stress, tiredeness; everything can be solved merely by feeling full. And once I am indeed full, then it does not feel nice any more. I start feeling really heavy and the only thing that will settle me is to lie down by the couch and watch a film or go to sleep.

So, I think enough is enough. I need to change. I need to make the effort and make all the changes needed to change my mentality and my way of living. For myself, my marriage, my children and last but not least my health.

And so this is my battle to lose weight. My war. A war with many battles. Some will be lost, I know that even from the start. But I need to win more battles that the ones that I will lose. And in the end, I do realise that controlling my eating habits is something that will forever haunt me, however I am prepared to go down that road. The alternative is to get older, fatter and far unhappier than I am now. And this is something I am simply not prepared to do.

Therefore, this is my pledge. 1 year. 365 days. 20 kilos to lose. A target stretched but doable which will make me enjoy Christman of 2010 and make me make a different far happier New Year's resolution for 2011.

Good luck, Elena.