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So... 33 years old, two adorable children, a great supportive husband... and greatly lost as well. I love my life, full of challenges true, yet also rewarding and fulfilling. And yes still my life is dominated by a large extent to how much food I have had and how full I am . I connect every aspect of my life to food. Love, hate, sadness, boredom, stress, tiredeness; everything can be solved merely by feeling full. And once I am indeed full, then it does not feel nice any more. I start feeling really heavy and the only thing that will settle me is to lie down by the couch and watch a film or go to sleep.

So, I think enough is enough. I need to change. I need to make the effort and make all the changes needed to change my mentality and my way of living. For myself, my marriage, my children and last but not least my health.

And so this is my battle to lose weight. My war. A war with many battles. Some will be lost, I know that even from the start. But I need to win more battles that the ones that I will lose. And in the end, I do realise that controlling my eating habits is something that will forever haunt me, however I am prepared to go down that road. The alternative is to get older, fatter and far unhappier than I am now. And this is something I am simply not prepared to do.

Therefore, this is my pledge. 1 year. 365 days. 20 kilos to lose. A target stretched but doable which will make me enjoy Christman of 2010 and make me make a different far happier New Year's resolution for 2011.

Good luck, Elena.